ok heres a quick summary.

im no longer with my gf nanci. we had a big fight, she cut herself and she was in the mental hospital for a while. i dont live at her apt. anymore. im living in a hotel. tomorrow is my last day in high point. i havent seen my daughter in 3 days. shes with her mom. just about everyone in HP is harassing me saying im a bad person, when i know im not.

my car was hit again, but by a shopping kart with sharp edges. they are deep scratches.

lifs sucks. im depressed, i miss my daughter and i need all the support i can get from my extended scioNRG/scionlife people. i hate living in a hotel and my boss/owner is a selfish piece of crap. wanting me to stay in hp.

if you all want to see how im doing, give me a call. 914-391-5577. i wont answer but ill call after you leave a voicemail. im also staying at the Innkeeper in Archdale/High Point off mainstreet I85.

thanks everyone. im also moving back to wilmington also on friday morning.

im getting my old job back too

-paul/firesquare

 

aww. I'm sorry Fire. We still love ya though :D

 

Man, you know we are here for you....

 

Hit me up if you need anything Paul. I am like you tho. I won't answer but if u leave a message i'll call back.

 

*HUGGGGGGGS* hit me up too if you need anything too paul. Im like u n spider too. i have problems answering sometimes but i'll definitely call you back.

 

Yo man, i didn't get your messege until just the other day. Need anything i'm here for ya too.

 

well tomorrow mornin is my last day in the triad. i hope i can make a new happy start in wilm. im pretty depressed without my daughter in my arms. ill make it though

thanks family

 

I talked to paul for a bit tnite. He sounded alot better then he did. Sounds like things are on an upswing. He is moving tomarrow so he'll be gone from the net for a while. If you need to get ahold of him and don't have his number hit me up and I'll get him the message.

 

ok well im in wilm now! wooo

im on my bros computer. ill be gettin one soon. i start monday and im back with my friends here in wilmington. ill be back on the forums like i was before (post whoring)

but otherwise gas sucks down here. 2.93 a gallon. it cost 33.50 to fill up from fumes.

now i just put some new toyota spark plugs and gaped them to spec but my gas mileage went down 5-6 miles!!!

did i over gap them or what? should i buy new plugs?

but back on subject. youll see me in a cherry mood from now on. nanci is still harassing me but its not as bad anymore. ill see my daughter soon. nanci's mom is very cool with me now and will continue to give me updates. im thinkin of changing my cell number just to keep nanci out of my hair.

thanks again everyone, and for the phone calls that i recieved from a few of ya.

thanks extended scionlife/NRG family

 

good to hear things are perking up

 

well i thought about changing my number and email and stuff. shes still harassing me and threating me that ill never see my little girl anymore. she claims to have another guy but whoever it is better not touch my daughter. i tell you what!

i changed my passwords cuse i didnt get a chance to delete the cookies off her comp.

things are slowly improving. i need to stop drimking for one. its keeping me in bed :-(

but ill be making more meets and what not.

 

Do what you gotta do to keep yourself in good standing, Paul. Whatever it may be! I know you'll be ok, we all do!! Be safe and good luck!!

 

yea, NO MORE DRINKING PAUL! take pictures if you do! hehehe ;)

 

haha i got a pic. it will be up later tonight

 

here we go. this was taken a few nights ago. my latenight snack

 

Beer and donuts. Looks like life is moving up.

 

damn those look like future projectiles.......

 

it makes my world go round ;-)

but anyways. everyday is an improvement. things are on the up and up

 

ok update!!!

heres the new thing. nanci has been with her new guy for about 6 days and now i found out last night that they're going to get married. that caught me way off guard. but wait theirs more, then she tells me that they have been talking online for over 6 months! WTF did i miss here. was i cheated on while she was pregnant with my child. now im not even sure if shes my child. weird puzzle pieces are coming together now.

she told me that she still loves me and wants to get back with me. i told her it was over and with good reason. ill still be there for my daughter Riane.

she starts to get mad and says that her new man (i dont know his name nor care) acts like a better father and he calls her his daughter. he also sais im a piece of s**t for leaving nanci in pain and sadness. i mean i had no choce. what was i suppose to do when all of one city in North Carolina was aganist you?

then she closed the deal. she says hes the new father and she will LIE to riane that he is her real dad. over my dead body!!! i told her hell no but then she says this

"she is white enough to be his daughter"

i lost it from there. y'all would have seen me on the 11 O'clock neus for beating a guy to death with a lug wrench. im glad they are 3 hours away. i was out of my mind.

so now im going to go to a court house or ask my mom how and when can i get a paternaty test to really see if its my daughter.

i just dont get it. im so confused and depredssed. i dont understand what went over my head. but i vented last night safely with a good select friends in a safe place, balling my eyes out trying to figure out what i should look forward to now.

hows my daughter doing? very well but how will she do with theis bullcrap going on when she gets older? thats what scares me. scares me to death.

what does a paternaty test cost? can i fight for her and win? how can i get custody if i work 8-6 M-F and 8-5 on sat. and nobody is here to watch her. i dont know what to do.............

 

dude that is not spiffy. sorry to hear that. ufff..