I swear my F'ing family is going to kill me.
I just heard that my Brother is in the ICU. There are so many things that are not adding up with him I don't know where to start. I'm trying to sell everthing I got to pay off bills and it's not working. My work has know Idea what I do. I'm getting so F'ed up. I can't even type anymore for fear that I'm going to lose it.
I work in a church And I think God hates me. I'm 33 years old and I don't have any control over any parts of my life.
I just want to go work on my car. I wish I had money to do something. just to escape
my head is going to blow up

 

I know you posted this in your location. But I wanted to try and help out a bit. i know its easier said than done, but its not as bad as it seams. Life takes turns and stuff happens. Pull through it and become stronger. Dont let a few minutes, days or even months ruin your life. Work through it with the help of friends, work, god or whatever your escape is then help others with what you have learned.
Keep your head up and talk to someone.

 

I wish it was only only just a brief time I had to get over. My whole life has been like this. when i was a kid i used to cry because it was supposed to be the best time of my life. My whole life has been a sh1tstorm
I guess i sent this post out in hopes that some thing magical would happen to be honest i dont know why i did it

 

Well I guess your thing see,s to be is your expectations. Instead of expecting your childhood to have been the best time of your life, you should have just lived it and been content with the way it is. Instead of expecting something magical by making a post, just take it for what it is...a way to vent and get your frustrations out. Baz Lehrmen or whatever his name was had a song from 1999 called we are all free to wear sunscreen. In it he said be careful of people who offer advice but listen to those that give it.
Take away from this thread any advice anyone might give and decide what helps you then live from there. No ones life is easy. And I guarantee ALOT of people have it worse than you do.
I am headed out to Iraq for 8 months away from my wife, just an obstacle I will grow from. Now how trivial are the everyday things that make you seem like it all sucks? Live it and learn from it. Live it and grow from it. But never expext anything to be perfect.

 

I agree -- You need to confide in someone - your boss at work - your best scion buddy -
Someone. Does your brother have prior medical problems or was he in a car accident?
By what you said and how I have perceived it - Does your brother not have health
insurance and your trying to take care of this for him? It seems that you have many
friends in the scion community that can help, just by reading the posts and reponces
to said posts. You have alot of friends within the scion community, but they can't help
if you don't ask them. I truly hope everything turns out ok for your brother and you.
Please don't give up hope -- Hang in there.

If I can help you in any way please let me know.

 

I know I'm a still a youngster but learn from me. I used to be in this boat along side you, just hating life and always having something to complain about. I am alot better now cause someone told me life is only as good as you make it, this came from a friend that always there for me and now matter what happend he was always ok and happy. he told me to stop thinking about money, work, family, drama ect. because when you die it means nothing so why should worry about it while your alive. 4 days later he was killed by a drunk driver and it took alot to get over it. I ingnored his advise after he died and I got over and then I relized what he was saying. your only here on earth for a short while so stop focusing on the bad moments, and the little things that get you down and do what you have to to smile.

its tuff and you cant just forget about whats going on, you just have to find a way to deel with it. when I get really stressed out I go for a drive on a windy road, turn up the tunes and just focus on the trun in front of you. its amazing how much it helps, you just forget about everthing and let the car take control.

what I'm trying to say is do what makes you happy, cause in the end nothing that we do matters, you cant take money to heaven, hell, 6feet under, ect. your drama doesn't follow you, your job doesn't exist. just relax and hold on. it'll all work out in the end.

 

another thing I like to do when I get down is ask myself what I would tommorow if someone told me I only had 24 hours to live. you start thinking a little more positive when your faced with death.

the bigest problem with people is they don't do what they want cause of jobs, money, rules, but if you had cancer and knew yoiu were going to die, none of those things would matter. just do what you have to but don't forget your dreams and ambitions.

this is why I have the nickname of pirate. I like to live free and only do what I have to, to survive.

 

I don't mean to appear "unfeeling", but you could "dump" this in off topic, which is where I'm moving this thread. I hope things work out for you.

 

I am truly sorry for what you are going through........

Take the advice from someone who has lived a rough childhood as well.......full of abuse, neglect, raised in foster care, etc

Look next to you and you will always find someone in a much worst position that you. You have gotten great advice above.........hope you consider it.

God doesn't hate anyone..........he just tests you. He won't give you more than you can handle..........trust him and trust yourself.

Best wishes to you

Jess

 

Life and God work in very mysterious way's (I know pretty cliche, but it is true), but trust me dude, it can only get better.

If the bills are a problem, consolodate, cut the credit cards, and get credit counseling. It is something you can overcome!

If you're not already in a relationship, find someone, it REALLY helps! Having a significant other there can lift up your spirit and give you something to look forward to. Just be careful, sometimes girls can be very cruel!

Find more time to spend with your friends and family. Talk to them and let them know how you feel. Hell talk to anyone! Talk to me on aim if you like (devyxvanitybang). Having someone actually listen to you instead of just hearing you makes a big difference sometimes.

If sometimes life feels like too much, cry. Take a pillow, bury your face in it, and cry. Let it all out. Punch the bed, scream, and get it all out. It makes you feel a lot better!

And lastly, pray. Pray every night. Really pray. Pray like God is right there next to you, and dig deep inside yourself. He'll answer you.

 

yeah dude, ive been going through some tough times too recently. girl broke up with me after 5 years she decided to be a *****, another close friend of mine left for college. im pretty much alone now. things really arent going my way now. but you gotta find someone to talk to and let it all out. a friend of mine died friday. his own friend shot him by accident. someone else said it in a prior post. you gotta live life to the fullest while you still can. we can all go and our number can get called ANY SECOND. you dont wanna drag yourself through life being miserable. you say you work in a church. talk to a preist, nun, or god. hope things turn out well for you dude, i really do. my aim is (sxvx686) holler if you need anything.

 

Wowza...Thats cool to see someone else thinks the same stuff as me!!...Well, for me everything else in my Life is going Well!...like my job and finally getting my finances in order, getting my tC!!!!....But the one thing I never truly had was that Social Life!....I never had any friends except my Homie Jake I known since 8th grade...Never had a g/f or in a relationship!...yea..Thats whats missing...is the "social life" I dont know how to fix that or gain new friends!...Just though I put my 2 cents in!...If anybody want to be my Dr. Phil...haha..Let me know!!

 

Start smoking pot.....

All joking aside everyone here has some good advice.....but nothing is better then just hanging out we good people and laughing.....its the best medicine....next to the herbal stuff!!!